this is me

Less than two weeks from now, I'm gonna be done with junior year. Finally. I cannot wait for this to end. This has been the most exhausting year of my life. I can't even find the drive to study anymore. Wonderful. Look, four-day weekend due to the country's political state, and here I am still not finished with my homework.

Also, watch me attempt to do the impossible: finish my school paper's layout in 8 days. I have done nothing whatsoever yet. I don't even know how I'm going to squeeze it in between all the school work I still have left to in the next 10 days, but let's hope I finish it on time, because the grades of about 30 other people depend on whether I finish the layout on time.

After all this, however, I'm gonna have my almost-three-month summer break. I'm starting it by going to my friend's sixteenth birthday bash which he says will be prom-themed. Wonderful. I thought I filled my quota for wearing gowns for the year, but no, I have to pretend to be a girl for one more time. FUCK. But hopefully this will turn out better than my real prom (which was a huge disappointment).

Speaking of prom, the night was unfortunately not "the best night of my high school life," as many people say. My hair looked stupid, the seniors dominated the dancefloor like it's their prom and not ours (I mean, we juniors paid for the damn thing!), so my friends and I opted to stay out of the hall most of the time, and the picture-taking system was so unorganized that I just wasted a good 150 bucks for a group picture that was never taken because my name was never called due to the fact that there were lots of other people waiting to have their picture taken too, and the fucking photographers didn't call everyone in the order they paid but instead called only whoever was there. What were we supposed to do, hang around outside the whole night? Gah. I hope next year turns out better.

So. As you can see I haven't been posting. Again. But I'm really actually doing my homework now. OMFG.

Anyway.

Today was very exhausting. Went to the incredibly mountainous province of Batangas to visit my mother-side relatives. It was fucking hot. Felt like a desert or something.

And..

Finally the paper I've been complaining about for the last few months is actually coming out. This Monday. Very very very late, I know. And to punish us for making her to all the work, my Journalism teacher is leaving the paper completely in our hands and if we don't send the paper to the printer by the end of February, we fail. Bah. I hope the motherfucker who left the paper to rot in hell at about the same time I did doesn't bail out this time, because I don't want to fail in the one subject I like, and I've promised myself that I will work hard in Journ this year.

It's back to school again today, and it was boring. The whole morning we just watched a movie about Mother Theresa. I love her and all, but the film was so long I almost fell asleep. In the afternoon the teachers weren't too interested in discussion, we did almost nothing.

Tomorrow we're going to a visit kids with cancer as part of our Social Studies class. We're going to take care of them and keep them company for half a day. I'm not really fond of kids, but I want to help them, entertain them for even just one day.

In other news, I want to go to Boracay. The national journalism contest will be held somewhere near there, and my journ teacher promised anyone who won third place and above (because only those ones are included in the national contest) in the regionals that they will go to Bora after the national contest is over, but lucky me, I got 7th place. Three years ago I would've been included in the nationals, but they changed the rules to include only people who won third place or higher. Grawr. I'm glad I won, but a week away from school in February to be spent in some remote island somewhere south is way cool, and 3rd sounds a lot better than 7th. But oh well, at least I won something, and my medals' reeeaaally shiny, lol.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! :D

Gawd, it's 2006 already! Time goes by so fast, next thing you know it's 2007 already. It's been a fun year, though, even if it went by a lot faster than any other year in my life.

Watched fireworks tonight, so I wasn't even aware of any countdown as I was outside. Ate lots of stuff, but mostly spaghetti. I'll try the other stuff later when I wake up.

Yeah, I haven't posted in ages, but one of my new year's resolutions is to post more often, so yay. :)

PS. Belated merry Christmas/holiday of your choice to everyone, because I hadn't been able to post last week.

GOF's showing here tomorrow!! Apparently it's then only place where GOF's showing two days early. No, it's not the premiere, because that was yesterday (and I didn't know that until today, when somebody mentioned that one of my schoolmates watched it yesterday). How come we get to watch it two days earlier than everyone else? I dunno either. Actually, every Potter movie was shown here two days early, like POA, which was shown on July 2 instead of on July 4. Aren't I lucky?

However, I won't get to watch it until Sunday, because I'm gonna be very busy during the next few days. There's a play we're doing on Monday, and this is a huge part of my English grade, so my class and I are practicing like crazy. I'm so tired even though I have very few scenes. Oh well, at least we get free periods because our teachers are very nice and let us rehearse for the pay instead. Dammit, I really really want to watch tomorrow. But I guess I have no choice but to wait for Sunday. *sigh*

Anyone else who lives in a place where GOF's shown early, or is it really just here?

Why is it that I can't write when I'm supposed to?

Because right now an extremely short feature article is sitting beside me, screaming, "I suck!!" and trying to get me to make it better, but my mind won't cooperate, so tomorrow I'm going to submit a completely worthless article and hope that homework would not be a very big part of my final grade.

So apparently I won first place. OMGWTF. I'm shocked. This is so... OMG. Amazing.

I'll be back when I have something coherent to say.

WEEEEEEEEEEEE FIRST PLACE!!!

How come none of the things listed in my 'things to do' list have been crossed out yet, even after 24 hours? I'm about halfway through the Chemistry one, but OMFG 12 hours until the journalism contest and I still haven't read the newspaper OMG.

And yet I'm downloading stuff and going through my f-page instead of doing my homework, as I should've done hours ago.

Starbucks Vanilla Cream Frap rocks my socks.

That is all I can say, because I just got home from a camp thingy during whichi I slept for a total of about 10 hours in 3 days, which is SO not enough. But it was fun. But still exhausting.

"I have always thought of the earth as a universal human resource. No one has a right to own it."

-Larry Esteva in Bamboo in the Wind

( One long paragraph about a book and crappy Philippine politics and government )

Wow. I actually talked about the country and politics and the Martial Law. Since when did that happen?

This has been the best birthday ever. I love my friends. And they love me, as you can see from the red box of letters currently sitting in front of me. And for the first time in my life my sister gave me something. OMG.

*happy sigh*

So. H-BP is out today, and I'm getting a copy later, but omg I can't read it yet because my friend and I are exchanging copies on the 29th as a birthday gift to each other, because I'm turning 15 on the 28th, and he's turning 15 on the 30th. Yeah, I know, pretty pointless, since it's the same thing anyway, but we're crazy like that. And it sounded like a good idea at the time.. But right now, I just wanna spork myself for that stupid deal, because how can you not read H-BP for two weeks when it's just sitting there in your room?? Fuck, what did I get myself into?

Not reading H-BP yet might turn out to be a good thing, though, because I have a ton of school work to do. I've got two articles for the school paper that are due on Friday, at least three exams this coming week, and a lot of other things that I have yet to start doing. So if I start reading H-BP now, I'll never get started on school work. So I'll just stay out of LJ and wherever else you can find Harry Potter on the net for the next couple of weeks or so.

Journalism is probably the only class I like right now. It's fun to write, and the afternoon workshops we have (for those who actually are in the elective for the journalism part and not for the creative writing part or they think it's easy to ace that elective) turn out to be fun bonding sessions because there's only about five of us plus the teacher, Ms. Jamasali, who's one of my favorite teachers ever. And now I actually read the news section of the newspaper voluntarily!

I think I'll move to the south of the country, where not everyone is as power-hungry as the bastards we call sentors and congressmen.. Everyone here in teh fucking metro wants the President to resign, so they could take over. And what's going to happen when she's out of power? Everyone's gonna want to replace her, so there's gonna be mroe chaos, when they could just focus on helping the thousands of kids who die in the streets because their parents can't feed them. Motherfuckers.

It rained all day. Got rained on 485467410 times. What fun.

Tomorrow I start training for the Journalism contest. Yay.

I can't think of anything more to say. Obviously the rain has damaged my brain.

*goes to study for the 4543631487 exams this week*

It's Friday! Finally. God, this is turning out to be the most stressful school year ever. It's two weeks into the school year already, but it seems like just two days, except I feel like I've done enough school work for two years. My section's bonded a bit more, though, so it kinda makes the workload a bit more bearable. And omg I got my stipends (aka the money they pay us for studying in my school)! Yay for more money!

School sucked. Ugh. I don't know why, but it's just so exhausting. And there's a ton of things to be done, and so far I haven't done anything. I can't even type anything longer than a few sentences. Ugh. And the weather decided to make matters worse by being so fucking hot. Ugh.

22 hours until I'm finally done with school for the week. OMG I can't wait!

So.. uh.. my elective's officially English Journalism, because I just gave away my Bio Lab Techniques slot to someone else. And.. in other news, I can't hear my English teacher's voice. OMG. She's just so... blah. She looks like she's about to fall asleep, and her voice sounds like that too, and she just doesn't speak loud enough for even the people in front to hear her. I think I'm gonna fail English.

Ugh. Three days into the school year and I've already had two math quizzes, at least six homeworks in various subjects (two of which were in math wtf), and to top it all off I have a practical test in Chem this Friday. WTF. And tomorrow I have a three-hour-forty-minute-break again tomorrow (just like today) during which I will have nothing to do once my friends go to their classes and I have nobody to hang out with in my class. Ugh.

Most of my teachers are pretty cool, though. Except for the Physics one. Nobody even dares to whisper in her class. OMG. And my Chem teacher is the gayest thing I've ever seen. His accent is so gay it isn't even funny. Kinda freaky. No offense to anyone, I swear. He just freaks me out. And makes me burst into laughter all the time. I've had to pretend to coudh several times so he wouldn't cath me. Can't he be gay without the disturbing (and freaking hilarious) accent?? Again, I repeat, no offense to anybody. But if you hear him I swear you will laugh your asses off. Sounds like he's faking it or something, but that definitely is the way he speaks. He's an ok teacher though, if you manage to ignore the accent.

There's a freshman in my school who's just 10 years old. OMG. And apparently he topped the entrance exams. My school is a freaking science high school. Thousands of honor students from around the country try to get in. And then he beats people from exclusive schools who are about three or four years older than him???? What the hell is that??

Ugh. Got my hair relaxed at my mom's insistence. My sister didn't tell me it would hurt when the thing the put on your hair touches your scalp, damnit! My scalp feels like it's burning and I feel like someone's yanking my hair off my head and it fucking hurts. I kinda like how it turned out, though. Feels nice. Except for the scalp thing, anyway.

So I'm not in the jock section, thank God. Still don't know anyone that I can hangout with and not feel... ugh, but I feel slightly better about it than yesterday. Clarisse says it'll be an interesting year. I still don't know if that's a good thing or not.

Ugh. Just thinking about the coming school year makes me want to go curl up and die.